I hope that love she gave you, was just enough to save you;

it's not like you care anyways.

Happy New Year Everyone!

anonymous, i hope you're happy now.
you ruined everything.
cause now, he hates me.
congratulations anonymous, good job.
go ahead and celebrate now.
thank you for ruining my life.

sighs, i really really feel like crying again.
cause this is really tearing me apart.
you should know that i really didn't mean what i said right?
and you should understand that i said that to protect you.
please don't be angry anymore.
i'm really really sorry dear.
please forgive me.
))))))))))))):

taste the bitterness inside at 9:21 PM;

i could hold you in my arms forever, but it still wouldn't be long enough.

i've had enough of this.
anonymous, i'm begging you to leave us alone.
why can't you just do so?

argh, please kill me.
i'm not in the mood now okay?
sighs.
he wants to make shaqif suffer.
i shouldn't have done that.
i'm already regretting, and you haven't done anything to him yet.

gosh, i hate you anonymos!
fuck you!
someone please kill me before i do so myself.
penknife, my good friend, i need your help.
please slash right here, - points to my wrist -
exactly at the veins please.

i just wanna die now okay.
leave me alone to bleed.
sighs.
)))))))))))))))))))))):

taste the bitterness inside at 8:49 PM;

what will you do, what will you say, if i walked away?

what will you do, if i only had 15 seconds to live?
what will you say, if i only had 15 seconds to live?
i asked shaqif these questions the other day.
and look at what he replied! (:

Caryl: What will you do if i only had 15 seconds to live?
Shaqif: I will die with you cause you're everything to me.
Caryl: Then what will you say if i only had 15 seconds to live?
Shaqif: I'll say, i love you and you mean the whole world to me. I mean it.

ain't he sweet?
hahah.
i need to think of a new blog address for my public blog again!
mine sounds a lil weird, don't you agree?
though i'm so in love with that song by yellowcard!
http://cityofdevils-.blogspot.com

and i think i'll stop here.
waiting for my dear to reply my message.
think his either still sleeping or doing something else?
argh, i miss him so much!
can't wait to see him again.
which will be when school reopens.
i'll be able to see him everyday!
before lessons, recess and after school!
wheeeeeee! xDDDDDDD

taste the bitterness inside at 1:22 AM;

you're the part of me i can never let go off.

Merry Christmas Everyone!
i know i'm late by 1 whole day, i'm sorry okay?
totally forgot about it.
didn't really celebrate this year.
it was just like any other day!
nothing special happened at all.
sighs, i'm just glad you're still by my side.
god bless you my dear.
and last but not least, iloveyou!
i know nobody, even you can read this.
so i've decided to come clean here.
everything i need to say, will be here.
you'll know my secrets, my everything.
so count yourself lucky! (:
hahah.

♥ shaqifahmad.

taste the bitterness inside at 5:27 AM;

you drove away from my car crash of a heart.

woaini.
i just can't seem to stop thinking about you.
it's like as if you're tattoo-ed in my brain.
alot of people have been telling me bad things about you.
that you're a player and that you're just playing with my feelings.
but i refuse to believe them, cause i know i'm suppose to trust you.
but somehow, i'm afraid that what they say might be true.
you told me you want to grow old with me until we hate each other.
but telling me isn't enough.
i need you to prove it to me.
i want you to hug me tightly and say you'll never leave.
i want to sleep next to you and hug you tightly till the next morning.
i want you to kiss and hug me everynight before i sleep.
i really really do need you.
ever since you've come into my life, you've made everything brighter.
you've helped me find my way back home.
back home into your arms.
i feel safe when i'm with you.
i feel loved when you hug me.
but now that you're not here, everything's a blur.
i really want to hear your voice again.
i want to hear you say i love you again.
but it's not like you care that i'm pouring out my heart here anyways.
please unbreak my heart, say you love me again.
)))))))):

taste the bitterness inside at 7:00 AM;